Wednesday, July 9, 2008
My little Dragonfly...
I was asked by one of my family members (one of the many who reads my blog, but never comments) what my concerns are when it comes to having the new baby. She is referring to the last post... it's a very small part if you didn't notice.
My big concerns are just that everything goes well. I really would like to try a VBAC (Love Bug was a c-section due to large size), but I'm still not meeting all the criteria to try it, since he's still in breech position. Often second babies have ample room, with everything being stretched already, to move around a lot. I was told that he'll probably be head down by 34 or 36 weeks, and I hope they're right. He's smaller than Love Bug, so hopefully that will help.
I was worried about Dragonfly's development, since they found a large measurement on my last ultrasound, but that was resolved just today! We went for another ultrasound and they found that the measurement was normal for this age range and is of no concern anymore, so that is reassuring! Yeah!
My next concern may seem a little silly, but I'm worried that I won't have enough love for both kids. Love Bug is the absolute center of my world and I can't imagine having time for anyone else. My Mom and many friends with 2 or more kids, assure me that they all felt this way too. And they also assure me that they had no problem finding time and love for 2 kids or more! Still, two kids under 2 seems so overwhelming!
Fortunately a lot of worries with my first pregnancy aren't a problem now. I worried about breastfeeding last time, but since I did it exclusively for 7 months and then continued through 16 months, I'd say I'll be okay. I also worried about having a c-section, but now that I've had one, I can say it was no big deal. I'd rather avoid it to help me heal faster (again, 2 kids under two... I don't have time to heal), but overall, it was a good experience and I recovered quickly the first time. My other worry was having time with my husband, but we've made that a priority and we always find time for each other. I think our relationship is stronger now in many ways!
I already love Dragonfly so much and I just hope I can be as good a Mom to him as I am to Love Bug. I can't wait to meet him... 13 weeks and counting!